More Bad Days

Well my luck is just not getting any better and I'm not handling all this so well. Yesterday my daughter was out of school for the holidays and my nephew (whom we have legal guardianship of) had half a day. At one point and time I was going to go pick him up from school, then my husband was talking about picking him up and I didn't remember what we'd decided. This was about 11:30am. Now keep in mind we had moved earlier this year but we didn't make him change schools, we got permission for him to keep going to the same school so he wouldn't have to uproot all his friends. Besides, my husband still works in Sylva anyways so he usually picks him up after he gets off work. Kennen just usually hangs out with his friends until then (he's 15 yrs old). Well I call Mark and he said no, that they were going to pick him up from home to take him to Andrews (where his grandparents (Mark's parents) and his brother and his mom (in a nursing home) all live). We let him go over often and on holidays stay for several days. So it usually takes about a good 20-30 mins to get to where I need to go and I'm still in my pj's. So I jump up and tell Nevada we need to hurry up and get dressed and get out of the house and go get Kennen. Well this child typically HATES going anywhere. So she starts throwing a huge fit, I'm trying to get us both dressed and out of the house and she's throwing a fit and we are running so late. As we are going down our driveway (we have at the bottom of the hill a large iron gate that we just keep propped open) well I was arguing with Nevada, trying to get her to calm down, thought I had room, I didn't...side swiped the van on the iron gate . I completely tore off the passenger side mirror, dented in the passenger side door (can't open it now, not really anyway...have to slam the door really hard to get it to close if you do get it open) and huge scratches and dents down the side of the van. I really don't know how much more I am going to be able to handle. My husand is the most awesome man in the world, he wasn't mad at all, but I still feel like he should be. Both the kids spent the night with friends last night so instead of us having a nice relaxing night at home, just the 2 of us (which is so rare) we fought. And it was all my fault. My depression is kicking in with all that's happened and my meds aren't working right as is (working to find the right one with my doc now) so I just sunk into a deep depression and just told him he should leave me, I destroy everything I touch....just sunk really low. He hates it when I get like that (which isn't often) but he doesn't really know how to handle it. So he got mad and told me he wasn't going anywhere, it was my decision if I wanted to leave, which of course I don't and of course I never will. But I was just so upset, this was just the last straw and I just fell apart. So then I get mad and jumped in the van and went for a drive. Crying my eyes out. Mark doesn't handle it well as I said when the few other times I've sunk this low. So I was gone about 30mins just driving around and crying. He never called. I get home and he was in bed asleep, which of course just made me feel even worse. So basically I sat up most of the night, miserable, hating myself, and crying. Then felt so guilty I just slept in the living room in my chair. So now not only am I responsible for paying back the scam I was suckered into, now we have to come up with the money to fix the van, and of course I've also over spent our account on Christmas. So needless to say I am not in the Christmas spirit at all this year. I am miserable. Mark just left to go pick up Nevada, gave me a kiss and left. He's the type of person, once a fight's over, he's fine and just goes on about like everything is ok. Me, on the other hand, feel absolutely worse today then yesterday. Luckily I do have a doc appt on the 3rd about my depression. The med I was before did work but stopped a few months ago. So I've been working with my doc to try and find a new med and dosage that will. So with all the things that have happened lately and my depression being off, I am just not handling well all the trials that are coming my way. Please pray for me and my family, that we can get thru all this.

To help and try and raise some money I am going to mark everything in my store 15% off with free domestic shipping and half off international shipping. So please come by and take a look. I have several things I need to add so keep checking back, I will be doing that here in just a little while.

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Sorry I've Been MIA

Hiya everyone. Sorry it's been so long since I've posted. I've had a really bad last 2 weeks. First, the adoption committee decided not to meet this month, so we have to wait another month. Ok, disappointing but hey, we've waited this long what's another 30 days, right. Then I get called in for a job interview for a full time teacher's aid, interview goes really well. Get a call from the principal saying I didn't get the job. However, he was so impressed with my interview he contacted other schools to let them know about me and if they needed someone they needed to definitely interview me. Ok so that's cool, disappointed about the job but at least he's putting my name out there. Then, on my way to take my daughter to the dentist, I get pulled for speeding. Was I? Probably a little bit, as much as he said, probably not. He was going the other direction with traffic AND a median inbetween us. He turned around and pulled me. Admitted I wasn't speeding then but when I passed him going the other way he "felt" I was so he wrote me a ticket. Ok, upset about that but luckily I am still on good terms with my co-workers from being a paralegal for so long so the attorney I worked for last is handling it for me, for free. Will he get it thrown out, I don't know. But at the very most I'll pay a fine but he can get it reduced so there will be no points on my license and it won't affect our insurance. And now, for the biggie. The one with no silver linning. Yesterday I stayed home, my daughter wasn't feeling well and I called into my part-time job, then at the last minute she decides she wants to go to school. Well I decided to go ahead and stay home and work on finishing up for Christmas. I go out and do some shopping and am home working on stuff and get a call from my bank and found out I was scammed/conned out of $3,500!!!!!!!!!! I had a big sale that I was so proud of and it turned out to be a scam. And apparently a fairly common one. I was contacted on Facebook and this guy said he was a buyer for someone else and placed a $147 order. I was so excited. Now I only take paypal and bank checks, well the check his "client" sent my was a "business" check and I thought it was a bank check, so I cashed it, kept my part, then wired the "middle man" the rest (who's in another country), I wasn't thinking anything bad....I thought it was a cashiers check so I was safe from fraud and I guess I am just a little too trusting. Well I got a call yesterday from my bank that it was a business check, the account is closed, and I owe the bank $3,500 now. They were very understanding and were the first ones to tell me I was scammed. I had to take out a LOAN to pay it back, the bank officer is being really nice and making my first payment not due until the last day of January. In the meantime, basically there is going to be nothing anyone can do, but I did fill out a complaint online last night with the FBI, I will contact my local sheriff's department and consumer agencies and such, but realistically, I'll never see that money. I have been so upset and just can't shake it. I am going to call work today and take the rest of the week off, only reason I can AFFORD to is I am still collecting unemployment from my last job and it will cover me not working. I just feel so stupid. Thank God my husband is being VERY understanding and doesn't even blame me, but I blame me enough for the both of us...and then some. So now I need to make some money to start paying off this loan. I am going to re-post all my items I thought sold back on my etsy shop today with all the other stuff I have and if anyone needs anything at all, PLEASE visit my shop. In despiration I am marking everything 15% off. I really need some help.

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Job Interview!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, I got a call last night asking me to come in TODAY for a job interview for a teacher's assistant position! I'm already off due to Nevada having a denist appt AND counseling this afternoon so I am squeezing in the interview in between. Wish me luck, pray hard, we need this badly. It would help so much. I would be working full time, have benefits (instead of it eating up Mark's check) AND I would have the same hours as Nevada and summers off and the same holidays so no worries on trying to get time off or someone to watch her, which isn't easy to do when they are a foster child cause they are so strict! This would be PERFECT! Pray God has sent me this job and that this is the one!

Irritated

Well the meeting on the adoption approval committee was cancled. Said they were too busy with the holidays. Sadly they have a long list of children waiting for the all clear so they can be adopted and it would have made the perfect Christmas gift. We are positive we will be approved for adoption, but it will still be a relief to hear it confirmed officially and get on with it. But oh well, we've waited 8 months, what's 30 more days LOLBut to try and cheer myself up and I am still running my etsy Christmas special. FREE domestic shipping, HALF off international shipping and just for kicks, mention you saw this on myspace and receive 10% off your order!. And every order comes with a FREE gift!

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Adoption Update

Well all we are supposed to hear today whether or not we are cleared to start the adoption process. I am waited on pins and needles to hear something! So pray hard all, this has been a long hard road for all of us, especially the little one. And finally there seems to be a light at the end of the tunnel. Realistically, there is no reason for them to deny us, I just worry, over everything LOL.

But to get my mind off it, I am going to go make lots of great crafts so stop by my store often to see what I've listed. And for the Christmas holidays FREE domestic shipping, HALF off international shipping and a free gift with every purchase!!

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Christmas Sale at my shop!

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Adoption Update

Ok, the latest news on the adoption is this. Everyone, counselor, DSS workers and supervisors, and caseworkers all agree that we should be allowed to adopt Nevada. (For those new readers her name is pronounced Nuh-vay-duh) Soooo now we have to have our paperwork "officially" sent to the adoption committee and basically the only person left to aprove the adoption is the head of DSS. Now, he should have NO reason to deny us or postpone the adoption process since everyone is in agreement. Of course I am still going to worry until I get an official yes, heck some of me will worry until it's complete and final!! Now they usually meet the 2nd Tuesday of every month BUT of course they have not decided if they will meet this month or not, due to it being the holidays. BUT apparently they have a lot of children lined up for adoption so they might go ahead and meet. If not, we have to wait until January to finalize all of this. Pray hard they meet this month!!!!

Been too long!

Hi everyone! Sorry I've been MIA for so long. My computer crashed and it took them a WEEK to get it fixed. I thought I would go crazy! But I'm back, YAY! No longer going thru withdrawl. Hope you come by my etsy shop and check out the new items. Hurry while you can, you'll see several great items on reserve for a sale so don't miss out on the item you want because someone else got to it first!!

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Countdown begins...2 more days left!

Saturday is my open house and my store will be temporarily closed! So best hurry up before all (hopefully) the good stuff (or everything!) is gone! So hurry and buy now! Free gift with every order!

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Countdown begins...3 more days left!

Ok guys, Saturday is fast approaching and I don't know what if anything will be left in my etsy store after that! So check it out and if you see something, best nab it now, and receive a FREE gift with every order!!

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Not much time left!

Just a reminder everyone....my open house is THIS Saturday....so all my wonderful items are in jepoardy of being gone before you get a chance to get them! So best take advantage while the items are still in my store! Free gift with every purchase!!
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HURRY NOW!!!

LAST CHANCE!!

Well guys your chances could be coming to a close to get these fabulous items in my etsy store! I have an open house coming up next Saturday the 17th and I will temporarily close my etsy store and take all my product with me. And if it sells out....then you will have lost out!! So best take advantage while the items are still in my store! Free gift with every purchase!!

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HURRY NOW!!!

Sunday's Sale

Good Sunday morning all. Wish I could say I got to take advantage of the extra hours sleep but I have a 6 yr old and nope, she still had me up early. Oh well I'll have plenty of time to get ready for church lol. Those of you who really liked the safety pin bracelet but thought you would get it later, well it sold! That's what happens when you don't take advantage of my wonderful sales! However, never fear, I am working on another one. In the meantime I still have some pretty awesome items in my shop and just mention "blogspot" when you purchase and receive 10% off any item and a FREE gift! Hurry while the sale lasts!
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It's FRIDAY! Check this out!!!

Ok, I have hit 100 hearts (exactly) on etsy and this means that 100 people have visited my shop and like it so much they added it as a favorite of theirs!! Woo hoo! So today in honor of that buy any item and receive a FREE gift (and I mean a nice one too) AND free domestic shipping or if you are international I will cut your shipping fee in HALF!!! Hurry while the sale lasts! Just mention blogspot in your purchase!

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Update on my father in law's surgery

Ok, he is out of surgery and let start off by saying praise God. Now, it's going to sound as if it's bad news but it's actually not, it starts out bad but looks good. The tumor was back, and it was bigger than the doc thought. Come to find out tho, it's rectal cancer he has, not colon, it had just moved into his colon. So they removed another part of his colon, and had to put in a colostamy bag. Now, since the tumor was bigger than expected and it was lower, the could not remove it. He said the place it's at is too dangerous to try and remove and he can't even get it all if he did try BUT the good news is that it has NOT spread to other organs like the liver or his lymphnods AND the doctor believes with chemo and radiation that it will shink if not completely get rid of the tumor. He doesn't believe it will get all the cancer (unless God decides to) but he does feel that it's going to work wonders and that he is going to be around a long time. So we are all very relieved that even tho it started out as bad...it's actually not. Obviously he's in a lot of pain so they are keeping him in ICU with a spinal block for a few days, then will move him to his own room. Total about 7-10 days in the hospital then they will start treatment in about 3 weeks. Give him some time to heal from the surgery. But again, the doctor was VERY optimistic and really feels this will get him back on his feet and back to normal. So we just really praise God that He took such good care of him and his dad had already commented previously he didn't care about a colostamy bag if that's what it took to feel better. So looks like he's going to be fine so thank you all so much for all the prayer! Now lets just keep praying God uses this new treatment to get rid of the cancer and not make him too sick. Doctor said most people (guess cause of the type they are giving him) don't get sick from the treatment, they are just tired. So thanks again.

Halloween Horror!

The horror is for me, cause if you buy something from my etsy shop before midnight on Halloween, you will receive a FREE gift AND free domestic shipping, or if not in the US I will cut your shipping fee's in HALF! Better hurry, I listed new items and they are WILD!

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Sunday's Sale

Today buy anything from my etsy shop and receive a FREE gift AND free domestic shipping, don't live in the US, never fear, I will cut your shipping fees in HALF!!! Just for today so hurry up and see all the great things in my shop!

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Thursday's goin to be Interesting

Well guys today is going to be interesting...I get to start prepping for a colonoscopy AND endoscopy that I am having done tomorrow. Usually, the prep is worse than the actually procedure, espicially since I will be knocked out for the whole thing...lol. Not looking forward to it but it needs to be done...I have serious stomach issues and hopefully this will help them find the problem. So be thinking about me today and all the "fun" I get to have.

Now, because I am feeling generous, through Sunday night at 8pm I am going to run a super special to make myself feel better about the upcoming days. When you order from my shop, you will get a (nice!) FREE gift and FREE domestic shipping. Now international buyers, don't you worry, you are not left out, you will get the free gift and HALF off your shipping totals. So please, help make this weekend easier for me by letting me see some sales, when I'm concious again..lol.

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Have a blessed day!